Im so freaking hard on my self. Like i just expect greatness and nothing less than that. I’ve done some crazy shit I wont tell anyone and those things are gonna come back and hunt the shit out of me. I might fuckedd my life up with this one. No BS . Also.. I want love .super bad. I always can met a chick but im so blah that i cant keep em for so long. I just wanna be able too meet someone and we actually develop a relationship and we go out on dates and she like me and I like her and we talk all night . There just has to be something wrong with me. along with my suppose bestfriend . shit maybe I have some internal detachment issues . I vividly toucher myself. I love life! Im afraid of being like those in my family . working a bs job just too get by ! and that cant be done. Once this lil one told me that i was like a father figure in her life and that shit shook my life cause I didnt realize that I’ve been there for her all threw highschool and she does things too make me happy . shes a senior going threw the riff of HS and that crap it brings and shes adorable . SO im happy among myself that my words of wisdom and advice has helped her threw these many years .. I need peace among myself . I need someone in my life. I just want a content happiness .. dont take that word content in the wrong way .!